Frustration Sensation

I think I might deserve more friends that care...

Chatroom of Doom.
That would be me and two of my other friends.
Just about every night we all chat together.
It used to be entertaining, but now it's just a pain in the rear.
I know that everybody has problems, and I guess this is just one added onto my list, eh?
My problem is that I have to deal with everybody else's problems.
Yes, apparently I'm the natural psychiatrist.
Why me?
I think it's cuz I care so much about everybody else.
Even though everybody else is more into themselves and all.
Just a little while ago I was getting scared.
My arm started to get all these bumps on it, and they really hurt.
I tell my friends about it, and what do they do?
Ignore me.
Yeah, no joke!
I'm telling them that my arm is starting to break out in hives, and they continue their conversation about some guys or whatever.
I mean, seriously, I'm not that needy of a person.
I give a hell of a lot more than I recieve from those two.
All I ask is that they care about me as well.
I guess it's going to take more than some serious looking bumps.

Funny, just a few minutes prior to my break out, I was paying close attention to both wandering minds.
I always concentrate on what other people say, and I ask pretty good questions too.
Ask why you were crying, if you feel better, how was your dance class, did this happen yet, and so on...
I guess I just care!
But they don't!
And what if these bumps are the sign of something more serious?
How would they feel when they found out that their "friend" and therapist died due to an unknown allergy?
I ask the questions that say that I'm interested, like "How did those lessons go that you were telling me about?"
They can't even ask me, "Are you okay?"
I'm gettting scared (and probably paranoid as well) cuz the bumps r really starting to hurt even more.
I want to stay home from school tomorrow.

I want to move far away from here.

It would be great to start all over again.
That way I wouldn't get stuck with such ignorant friends.
I know that if I said this to those two girls, they would tell me "Then don't be our friend."
But it's not as simple as that.
Years of bonding and sacrifice (the second one mainly on my part) has brought us close, and it's so hard to just get up and change what all that time caused.
I could try to explain it to them tomorrow or whatever.

This is probably a really stupid problem, especially considering all the problems I could have.
But I can't even fix it!
I'm totally helpless.
Suggestions.... I need 'em.
Until then, I'm off to retreat back into my underwater lair...

xX Clouds on the Ground Xx